In May of 2012, at the age of 45, I completed my first college degree. Because I was homeschooling our son, I had chosen to complete my nursing studies online, going in to the hospital twice weekly for clinicals. The combination of my schoolwork and his homeschool meant that I spent a LOT of time sitting at a computer, and needing to keep my hands busy while I studied, I ate.
I put on 65 lbs during the three years that I was in school, and this was on top of the extra weight I was already carrying. So, while I was proud of my educational accomplishment, I was also depressed and disgusted with myself. I did my best to live in denial, avoiding mirrors, photographs, shopping for clothes… I was uncomfortable always, wearing clothing that was too tight because I couldn’t bear the thought of buying bigger sizes. However, I had to wear dress clothes for my pinning and graduation, and nothing I had that was appropriate came even close to fitting. I headed to the mall. With much frustration and no small amount of tears, I purchased the necessary clothing, but it didn’t make me feel professional or pretty. I just felt big.
You need to understand, on my wedding day, 25 years earlier, I had weighed 102 lbs. But on my graduation day, I weighed in at 215 lbs! Something had to be done! I had tried dieting over the past 10 years, losing 10-15 lbs at a time, and then gaining 20, or more, back. I only lost weight for as long as my stubborness was able to battle my hunger, and it was never long enough. And even if I had lost the weight I wanted to, I hadn’t made any lifestyle changes. I was always going to end up where I started, or worse.
Yet, when school was finished, I was determined again to get rid of this person I didn’t even recognize. I stepped away from my computer. I worked outside in the yard. I drank water instead of pop. I ordered something healthier than I normally would have, turned away from my favorite snacks, and the weight began to come off. But as usual, I began to run out of steam.
Several friends were using a meal replacement shake, but it was expensive and I didn’t care for the multi-level marketing that went along with it. I began to search the web for another option, and I found IdealShape. And that is when I began to get me back.
IdealShape shakes haven’t magically removed my excess weight. What they have done for me is even better. Because of the hunger blocker, Slendesta, I was no longer battling the cravings and the hunger. That had always been my downfall. At some point, I wouldn’t be able to fight any more, and I would fail. But now, I had the support I needed to stay focused on my goal. When I realized that I was not hungry, it excited me! This freed me to concentrate on other areas, like exercise, something I had never done before.
I began walking…a lot. I wear a pedometer almost every where I go. My first goal was just to reach 10,000 steps a day, but now I try for 10,000 aerobic steps each day. As winter neared, my family joined a nearby gym so I wouldn’t be tempted to quit. I LOVE going now, and have even begun to add weight training. I never could’ve imagined myself wanting to go workout, but now I hate to miss a day. This would not have happened without Ideal Shape. Without their support, I would’ve failed again. I may owe them my life.